Sharing

That is it really, that was the point of this blog for me from the beginning and sometimes it is weird because I want to write about stuff but I forget the boundaries. Like who am I really sharing with? The fact of the matter is I am trying to share with myself, so that I can go back one day and read a little about what I was thinking and feeling, etc. Yes, it is true, a blog is more public. So therefore I guess more filtered in what I might say compared to a diary and maybe more critical of how I write. But this is OK I think. Day to day there are interesting things that happen in my life that I do not have to be so private or sensitive that I cannot share them with the world. And who is the world really? A couple of friends, some family members, big deal.

So today I am on day  5 of the Wild Rose Cleanse. Boy do I love it. It is so freaking awesome. I reminds me that I have control, that I am clean and fresh and good and not saturated with foods that make me feel sick. Because this is the truth. I am lactose and sensitive to Gluten and just not do well without a lot of fruit, veggies and nuts and seeds in my diet. This is just the way I am. And when I forget it – and start deciding that bran muffins are good for me (even though they are good for some people) and think that a sandwich and cheese is a great idea (which again is for some people) I get sick.

My lightness and good feelings melt away and I feel sluggish and physically sick and mentally defeated. And of course the worst it gets, if I have ice cream and cake or fried food, the worst I feel (I will say though in VERY small quantities I can be OK). I cannot sleep right, I get cramps and literally feel like I need to vomit (sorry for the detail). And then if I do it over and over again I get frusterated at myself for not seeing the problem, or ignoring the problem and become defeated.

Today and most days I feel awesome. I exercise daily and usually do not eat that stuff. I mean, don’t get me wrong. I have my chocolate and a drink once in a while J.

I wanted to write about this though, to remind myself about how much better I feel (and have felt in the last few years) eliminating the foods that make me feel sick and stick to the foods that make me feel awesome.  Remember Sacha (and those reading)…It’s all about how you “feel”. Feeling good and being healthy makes me want to experience life in a more positive attitude.

The truth is (for me anyways) without your health things are quite challenging. And we do not realize that until we lose it, and I have lost my health in the past and it was a very scary experience.

The first time I couldn’t walk because my legs were so sore. I couldn’t run for weeks and it felt like torture to imagine that I wouldn’t be able to run again. This episode came on because I had an infection that my body couldn’t tell me about. It was a bladder infection and I felt no signs or symptoms. Finally when it went to my kidneys I got really sick. This was the second time I felt the wrath of not being healthy.  And it was horrible. I was hospitalized in the end, admitted in a completely in a septic state. 5days in the hospital with a horrible Kidney infection. No fun.

So I try to take care of myself and remember how it is when unhealthiness exists in the body and how tough it makes things for you. When my body is happy and healthy I make better decisions and I feel good. Why wouldn’t I want that all the time?

 PS I didn’t really know where this blog post was going at first, but I am happy that I was able to share old and new moments of my life.