Shit Day

Today is a shit day (excuse my language). My stupid outlook is down so I have to use webmail and my computer still will not create shortcuts which annoying the bejesus out of me and doesn't make sense. That is the problem with this outlook issue. It doesnt make sense! Sometimes I literally feel crazy when things like this happen.

Tonight is book club night and I can hardly wait to have a big glass of red wine and try to relax and try to let these stupid little things not get to me.... although, they sure did today. 

Listen to me. I am just mad cause I have been snacking on cheese and crackers today and my stomach is killing me because of it. Tummy is in dissary, my computer sucks, and my work is not easy today.

You know what - I need to go on a nice long walk...that is my plan. Get me the hell out of this office I say!

I'm Your Man

The most memorable night of my life (yes, my wedding night), I was having Greek food and loving the atmosphere under a outdoor cozy big white tent, with lanterns hanging from the ceiling and candles and flowers and colours making it glow wonderfully. There was a petter-patter of rain lightly hitting the roof and a 3 story chocolate cake on a table in the corner with flowers decroarted like they were crawling up it on a vine.

Looking across the table at my and Jon’s parents, feeling me sister (my rock) and best friend beside me I felt so glad to be near them on this night. And then of course on my left sat Jon, and everytime I glanced at him I felt alive and mistified with joy. And there was a game where you couldn’t just clang the glass to watch us kiss, but you had to sing a song with the word "love" in it. And I thought that was cool, watching our families try their best to think of songs and visit with one another and all the rest.

And as dinner went on, and the plates were cleared I decided it was time to give Jon and I’s thank you speech. And when it came to an end, Jon asked me if I was finished and I said yes and he said then it was his turn and he got out a piece of paper. He held the piece of paper, and turned towards me, a little shaky he started singing the song “I’m your man” by Leonard Cohen. As he continued  his deep voice got stronger and the look in his eyes were true. He sang the entire lyrics to me infront of everyone, but it was like there was no one except us. He sang it with such heartfelt that I stood there with tears of joy and love in my eyes and felt so touched.

If you want a lover
I'll do anything you ask me to
And if you want another kind of love
I'll wear a mask for you
If you want a partner
Take my hand
Or if you want to strike me down in anger
Here I stand
I'm your man

If you want a boxer
I will step into the ring for you
And if you want a doctor
I'll examine every inch of you
If you want a driver
Climb inside
Or if you want to take me for a ride
You know you can
I'm your man

Ah, the moon's too bright
The chain's too tight
The beast won't go to sleep
I've been runnin' through, these promises to you
That I made and I could not keep
Ah but a man never got a woman back
Not by beggin' on his knees
Or I'd crawl to you baby
And I'd fall at your feet
And I'd howl at your beauty
Like a dog in heat
And I'd claw at your heart
And I'd tear at your sheet
I'd say please
I'm your man

And if you've got to sleep
A moment on the road
I will steer for you
And if you want to work the street alone
I'll disappear for you
If you want a father for your child
Or only wanna walk with me a while
Across the sand
I'm your man

If you want a lover
I'll do anything you ask me to
And if you want another kind of love

I got Married!

I feel older, wiser and more confident than I have ever felt before. Not only in myself, but in my path of life. Alongside my husband I will be. It was a perfect day, would have been better if there were more hours in the day. We laughed, we cried, we canoed down a river, had the ceremony under an arbor with flowers all around and it was gorgeous. It was so beautiful, I was beautiful, and everyone around me too. there were horses and gardens and a caring loving new family I was entering that gave it a glow of warmth that I am so thankful for.

We had some rain, some clouds and then this incredible rainbow…There was good luck all around and singing and dancing under a black light even. There were shots of Yager and G&T’s, a bonfire and a sauna and swimming in the river and hanging out on the dock in the dark completed the night. Pulled beef buns, and chocolate cake and some of the best homemade Greek food I have ever tasted and all the ingredients were fresh from the garden. I watched them pull the cucumbers myself the night before.

There were little touches of love and inspiration in moments of time, in flower arrangements, in napkin ring holders and poems. I will add the words to my most favourite poem in the world now. The one my grandfather wrote for Jon and I a week before the big day.

With my family by my side and my best friend smiling me on, I was the true "me" throughout the day and night.

I couldn’t have hoped for a better man to love and commit myself to, on a more perfect day to declare it to one another.