Shoot - I hardly have time for this. And yet here is is 8pm and I am still at work - crazy right? Well, I did just get back to work after a work out and dinner :)
But it is true my work is nuts right now. If I do not have this solution design that I am heading across the country to demo, right, I think I might burst into tears right in front of the client, which would be pretty silly and highly embarressing.
HOWEVER, I have been put on the spot in phone conferences suggesting that this onsite visit will determine the project success up to this point. Yikes.
Well, that being said, back to work!!!
Thankfully I have a wedding to get drunk at, with 5 of my closest girlfriends in the world, and they will make me laugh and forget the stressses that await the next week.
Who are we kidding? What stresses? It's going to be fine. I am Pro. My solution design is tight.
A - 1.
ps Keep your fingers crossed for me.
xoxoxoxoxo
sacha
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Ode to Sombrio
I went surfing on Thursday after work and I think tomorrow (holiday Monday) might be worth a trip up for a sunset surf. I have been realizing lately what a stress reducer my time in the water is - specifically at Sombrio beach. In the water I do not really think about anything except the waves, or the water, or the birds, or the whales (that I may or may not see). I guess I might think about my technique and my wave count and who is around me in the water, but not tons. And I do not want to talk too much and usually, the others surfers do not either. A nod, a smile, a little, hey hows it going, usually does it.
And then when I get out and I reflect about my time in the water from the beach, looking back at the breaking waves that I was just in, I think how clear my head is. How every worry that was on my mind earlier had just melted away. That it is all OK. Walking up the trail back to the parking lot, gazing up at some of the oldest protected trees on the island I feel so light, so happy. I feel in touch with nature, in touch with myself that I almost I feel giddy. I feel reflective and young. I feel like I could do anything, handle any situation. To be honest, retrospecitively, it is almost like I find life's meaning there. That somewhere in my subconcious I have discovered the secret to life, my life anyway. And I am in a state of devine peace. It sounds "too much" maybe, but it is a true feeling that I have and I want to make myself accountable for it. To remember it and treasure it. I do have a strong belief and have for along time that nature is my god. One day I will write on that one and try to articulate what that means.
I know now for sure where I will go at any time in my life where I feel like I "cannot take it anymore". It's funny cause I have been surfing at Sombrio for 8 years now, and the feeling of comfort and love and peace gets stronger and stronger every time I am there. It is way to beautiful, the trees are way too big. You feel like a small thing in this world and maybe that is why your worries vanish into thin air, because in the big picture up there, they do not mean anything. I can understand why people have just wanted to live there and have lived there. I think it is a special place, with special powers.
I think I am very lucky that I have found a place that I can escape the city to go to; arrive in less than two hours and know without a doubt I will leave with a complete sense of utter healing.
And then when I get out and I reflect about my time in the water from the beach, looking back at the breaking waves that I was just in, I think how clear my head is. How every worry that was on my mind earlier had just melted away. That it is all OK. Walking up the trail back to the parking lot, gazing up at some of the oldest protected trees on the island I feel so light, so happy. I feel in touch with nature, in touch with myself that I almost I feel giddy. I feel reflective and young. I feel like I could do anything, handle any situation. To be honest, retrospecitively, it is almost like I find life's meaning there. That somewhere in my subconcious I have discovered the secret to life, my life anyway. And I am in a state of devine peace. It sounds "too much" maybe, but it is a true feeling that I have and I want to make myself accountable for it. To remember it and treasure it. I do have a strong belief and have for along time that nature is my god. One day I will write on that one and try to articulate what that means.
I know now for sure where I will go at any time in my life where I feel like I "cannot take it anymore". It's funny cause I have been surfing at Sombrio for 8 years now, and the feeling of comfort and love and peace gets stronger and stronger every time I am there. It is way to beautiful, the trees are way too big. You feel like a small thing in this world and maybe that is why your worries vanish into thin air, because in the big picture up there, they do not mean anything. I can understand why people have just wanted to live there and have lived there. I think it is a special place, with special powers.
I think I am very lucky that I have found a place that I can escape the city to go to; arrive in less than two hours and know without a doubt I will leave with a complete sense of utter healing.
Friday, May 13, 2011
Togetherness apart.
My blog application was down the last couple times I tried to post ...
This post is about a togetherness, even when you are far apart. Yes, it is about Jon and I and how life is without him. I miss him. I do. I mean it is hard to complain too, because for him, it is the last thing he needs to hear. It's his job, his means to sustain himself, our selves and to complain to him does not do anything but make him feel badly. What is the point?
Secondly - to let it get to me is futile. It does not help, it hinders. What do you do when you feel lonely and sad? Nothing productive let me tell you :) So do you ignore it, do you pretend happiness?Yes, that technique does work to an extent, keep busy, have plans, make plans, fill your week with a mix of visiting and quiet evenings. Try your hardest to eat right - make meals even though it is just for one.
The reality of the situation is that in the big picture life is perfect and in the months that Jon is away I have to remember how independent I am. How much I love to spend time with myself and how to take advantage of the time alone, instead of feeling lonely.
This post is about a togetherness, even when you are far apart. Yes, it is about Jon and I and how life is without him. I miss him. I do. I mean it is hard to complain too, because for him, it is the last thing he needs to hear. It's his job, his means to sustain himself, our selves and to complain to him does not do anything but make him feel badly. What is the point?
Secondly - to let it get to me is futile. It does not help, it hinders. What do you do when you feel lonely and sad? Nothing productive let me tell you :) So do you ignore it, do you pretend happiness?Yes, that technique does work to an extent, keep busy, have plans, make plans, fill your week with a mix of visiting and quiet evenings. Try your hardest to eat right - make meals even though it is just for one.
The reality of the situation is that in the big picture life is perfect and in the months that Jon is away I have to remember how independent I am. How much I love to spend time with myself and how to take advantage of the time alone, instead of feeling lonely.
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