Life is a feeling

There is so much exciting things going on right now I wonder how it will be when it all dies down. Does it ever really die down though, I mean the reality is that life is filled with so much “stuff”. Even if it is just “stuff”, like day to day, we love our lives mostly. I have been thinking about life a little these days. Is life worth it to live, even if we are given a really horrible life? Of course, definition of horrible can be certainly misconstrued therefore perhaps not a fair question. But what is life worth? No matter how long or quality of life – is it still better to have lived?

 

For me, life is like this insanely amazing place. I have always thought I have felt a lot of life. In growing pains where I would cry for hours and not know why (hormones) and other types of pain - physical pain (emergency root canal), emotional pain (losing relationships), mental (scared, confused, angry). But even when I was going through painful times of my life, I remember thinking how lucky and what an experience this was, to feel so much of something. I think that has been my most prized life possession, the ability to feel pain and happiness, both equally.

I know in my most painful times and at my most happy times I would find a tree or a lake, a piece of grass in a park, something in nature to soothe and comfort me. I feel so free and so much more at ease in those places, close to ducks or water lilies, even if I have to run or walk to get there and soak it in. They mention these days and ages the deficit of nature in young humans and I am fascinated in this revelation; however, absolutely not surprised.  

Anyway, more and more as I go through life and experience these happy (and sad) life experiences, I think about what a gift we are given every day. To wake up and walk around, think independently, eat good whole foods, wash ourselves, take care of ourselves, look at nature, visit with the ones we love, sleep with the ones we love, in a bed, in a clean home, etc, these are the true gifts in life. We live this privileged life that is so fantastical, it is really almost ridiculous. It is like a dream and we should be thanking the stars every night for giving us this treat, this sample of the world that encompasses us and does its best to give us a fresh day, every day.

I believe that if life only gave you one thing and that thing was to experience a feeling, that life would still be worth living.